Monday, March 29, 2010

TEST RESULTS TODAY I HOPE

I hope we get some answers today. we see the Dr at 3:45. He called this morning.


I looked at Nancy's blog I was surprised no one enjoyed my acting. It was jun and I know I look like a cow on stage, but these days I need every laugh I can get even if it is at myself.

Well we got results and better than we thought. He has had a vascular stroke, in fact he has had many. The doctor showed us on the mri that he has had many but this one was worse than the others. He is doing more test on his brain and his heart. He had a problem with his heart in October and went to heart doctor in January. They found his heart had extra beets but no other problems was he having then. He was having dizzy spells but was not connected with his heart, but now they know it is. We will also have a sleep aptinea test and that could cause his strokes. He said when he has a dizzy spell he is having a stroke. He is going to try to prevent him from having the big one he said. It is scary but better than dimentia as we thought because that is the way he acted. He will not get his momory back he has already lost and may loose more, but is going to try to prevent that.
He is better this week but he still does not know what day it is and ask often every day. I have fixed him a calendar and he is suppose to mark each day off, circle in morning and mark that day off the next morning with an x and circle that day. Well he can't even do that very well, He marked April 1 and April 2, he gets so frustrated trying to get things straight in his mind .
He got very upset today because I told him he didn't need to be lifting on a TV. I try to tell him what has happen, but I don't think he knows. He says he is fine and he's not.
It is so frustrating to me but he does not realize he is different, or there is anything wrong.

Our lives has really changed. Need a head light put in the car,already been stopped once by police. our yard needs cleaned,so much to do, my knees are so bad, I can't do much. He does not have the energy or strength. Going to dr and get injections Monday. I hope it will help.

Keep us in your prayers we will appreciate it. Things are going to get better. Keep you informed.
GOD BLESS AND GOOD NIGHT

Thursday, March 25, 2010

FUN DAY

We drove to Hot Springs for an overview of our investments. They are doing very good, and checked to see how much money we could draw out without penalty for our cruise in September.

There was enough and more, thank goodness. God always knows what you need and he knew we need another trip. We will possibly get to see Charles and his family in Washington. Hope so, looking forward to that, so long since we seen them. It will be great.
Then we drove up to degray, Shouse Ford and visited some friends that was camping for spring break with their grandson. we got there early and we just sit by the lake and watched the water.
That is so relaxing to us. Then we all drove into Hot Springs and ate at Ryan's then played putt-putt golf. It was a great day. We drove back to camp visited for a while and came home, We took out time and drove slow and enjoyed the lake.and sight seeing. It was a great day.
GOD BLESS ALL

Monday, March 22, 2010

BETTER BEAUTIFUL DAY







Last night I got an e-mail that immediately made me feel better, Tony and family have gone on a cruise to Mexico and Kiefer wrote on my facebook he missed me. I didn't think they would even think of me. We have become very close in the recent weeks, we sit and talk about things as we have never before. He is 13 not and is growing up.

I also got an e-mail from a classmate that was beautiful. WHISPERS IS THE NAME I e-mailed it to each of you, read and listen to it.
GOD tries to get in touch with us in so many ways, I am better about listening and cherishing each touch. The beauty of a butterfly, a lady bug that just hangs around, bees that buzz around
flowers blooming blowing in the wins, even a mushroom, or toad stools as we use to call them, popping up out of the ground. Maranda and I watched one last summer pop up, every day we would watch it. We took pictures. she loves nature. We found a giant one last year. So beautiful all laced with ruffles, tried to preserve it or dry it, but couldn't. We was going to watch it grow but someone pulled it up. It was already about 1-1/2 feet across. There is so much beauty in the world if we only look for it. I AM LOOKING
This is a much better day today, I am feeling the effects of no thyroid medicine, that is probably the problem. I am doubling up on my B-complex so I will maybe feel better.
Tomorrow Coy goes for all his test.We will probably be gone all day. Be there at 7:45
GOD IS GOOD

Sunday, March 21, 2010

A DOWN DAY

Today is not a good day, a lonesome day. I can't put my finger on it but I feel realy low.


I never thought one of my kids could make me so unhappy.


We got to watching this movie called. The long way Home an old man who felt like he didn't belong anywhere,kids made him sell his home after their mother died, do away with his wood work shop so he ran away. That is the way I feel today. Just would like to run away and never look back.

Then we begin watching Annie's Point and she was a old woman who her son wanted her to move in closer in an apartment with not much to do. She said this is my home, I don't want to leave it. So she got her grand daughter and ran away going to Annie's point to release the ashes of her husband. This was their favorite spot. It was just as beautiful as when she last seen it.

Every time she talked to her son she would say don't sell my home.


Wouldn't that be wonderful if someday my grand daughter's would go on a road trip with me.

That will probably never happen, but I can dream.


I guess we will sell this house and move and when we moved here I thought this would be our last home, well things change and I just need to be happy and I can't living here anymore. I need to get Coy well and believing he will be, need to just find out the problem. We love our home and have put a lot into it to make it comfortable when we get really old and can't get around very well. Plenty of open space and wood floors to role a wheel chair on. I remember how mother struggled with her chair with so much furniture and carpet, until we ripped it up and went back to her hard wood floors.

All I want to do is cry today. A wimpy day as Sue says. Nothing specific, just sad.


Well I know I have done a lot of rambling today, forgive me, I have just got a lot on my mind.


GOD BLESS ALL

A DAY WITH MY SISTER

It was a wonderful day, I made a pot of soup, a pan of cornbread and lemon bars for lunch. They came over to put a sewing machine cabinet together. I knew Coy would not be able to get it together so I ask CW if he would. It was a very good visit. We went thru quilt material and she finished my quilt, she sure is a help to me. She put pointy triangles all around the quilt. It is so pretty. I love yellow.
She told Sue, I didn't like points, well maybe not. Hadn't thought about it. I love to be with her, she is funny and exciting.
We got to talking about our kids yesterday and ended up crying. See our kids are not perfect like some of the others. Their's is not either just dont want to admit it. We all have faults, me especially and I know it. I am really trying to wake up and smell the roses and give the roses while I live. I have changed my way of thinking lately. Like when I danced on the stage the other night, that was so not like me. Coy and I need to have more fun and enjoy life a little more. Just us two or at least with adults, we are getting too old to bear the burdens of small children and their attitudes and wanting to do so many things. Go here Go there. Don't get me wrong I love my grand kids very very much, just can't handle things like I use too.
We need to be more relaxed.

GOD BLESS ALL

Friday, March 19, 2010

ANOTHER DAY

We have no promise of tomorrow so we better make the best of today.

I love the sunshine, My sister can tell you that. I really enjoyed it today. It was near 70 and just a beautiful day. Set on the patio smelled the aroma of the bradford pear trees. They smell so good. My tulip tree is in full bloom and it is in front of the pear which is full of white blooms, It is so pretty , coming down the street it gives a beautiful back ground to the tulip tree. I checked out my shrubs to see if they was putting on buds. Nancy got me a red japanese maple last year, I am just waiting for it to come out. They are a beautiful color. Daffadil are in bloom every where in my yard, they have multiplied and there is lots of them this year. Spring is here, but the weaether man says we will have a rough weekend, snow and some freeze for north arkansas and oklahoma.
If it thunders in december it will snow in march always works, just mark it down.
It has done that for the last 3 years.
EVERYONE HAVE A BLESSED DAY , LIVE TODAY AS IF IT WERE YOUR LAST. GOD WILL BLESS YOU

Thursday, March 18, 2010

TODAY

Coy got up getting ready to go to Dr. again today I told him to get his work clothes on today and work in the garden, hunt your seed up, plan what you are going to plant. You are not watching TV all day today. So we worked out in the yard today, I cannot do much because of my knees, they hurt so bad when I walk a lot. I want to buy a golf cart, easy on, easy off. If I would learn to wear tenny shoes with a cushion in them, it would be better. I hate wearing shoes. I am an arky when it comes to wearing shoes. I have very ugly feet the worst I have ever seen. Toes crooked, I need to have them fixed, but things keep coming up so I haven't yet. They are getting worse every day. Shoes do not fit right so I don't wear any. I cannot stand for my feet to hurt.
It is beautiful here and warm, if the wind was not blowing so hard. So windy.
Well I will say good night and talk tomorrow.
GOD BLESS ALL

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

DR. APPOINTMENT

Before we went to Dr. today Pam had a Dr. appt. They sent her to the Hospital with pneumonia.

Her lungs has nodules in them caused by a deposit of bacteria and don't have enough breathing compacity anyway and when she gets sick with upper respiratory, she really don't. Will know something about her tomorrow. They have done MRI, X-Rays and has scheduled her to lower GI because of diarrhea she has had for a while.

Well we went to see a Dr. Beasley, never heard of him before, but really liked him. He is getting on the ball and is going to find out what is going on with Coy. He has ordered all kinds of test. Complete blood work up, MRI w/wo contrast. He named off several things it could be. It could be a B-12 definiency, hadn't thought of that, it could be delpression, it could be seizures. He said he thought he was having a kind of seizure, when he would stand or stair off into space. He said he seen one spot in his brain that he did not understand, the CT was not too clear that is why he has ordered a MRI W/WO. It will give him a clear picture. He has ordered all kinds of blood test, things I have never heard of before. He is also going to do blood gases. We go the 23 of march which is next tuesday. He is even orderin RA, ANA,CPK which is unusual test. These are all neuropathy test. He is also going to get his records from the wreck in 91 when he rolled his truck 4 or 5 times. Dr Simpson there in Pine Bluff has those.
I really like him, he is black, but very good and thorough, he spent over an hour and half with us. He said we gave him a lot of things to go on. I told him everything I could think of the way things has changed. He goes the 6th of April for sleep aptima test. I think he has that.
Just keep us in your prayers we need it physically and mentally, I am not too stable anyway.
Will post as we know anything.

With God's help we will make it through.
GOD BLESS ALL

Monday, March 15, 2010

SCAN FELL THRU

There was no scan to day, had dranked some coffee and was still on my medication. I was not told these things so I have to wait 6 more weeks, but maybe for a reason, everything halppens for a reason.
They have got it rescheduled for the 27 of april. Maybe I can still walk across the room by then.
I have done without my thyroid medicine before. I do not want to even get up and here it is springtime and no energy, maybe cancel it until winter, I don't know.
Coy and his problem, we will not be able to stand each other. We just about can't now, what will it be like then.
Well enough rambling and talking what might be, wait and see. Have a wonderful day and
GOD BLESS ALL

BIG DAY

Coy's Birthday at the Church was a big success. The kids all showed up. He kept going to the door after church and peeking in , He made the remark someone was having a birthday party.
It was him of course.
When we got to the church about 1:50 he walked in and stood around and Maranda got him by the hand and showed him the cake with his name on it, He read it and made no comment.
Didn't act surprised, I do not know what he was thinking. Everyone begin gathering in and we had enough food to feed an army. We had enough that the church came over and ate after church.
We had the tables decorated in all colors, spider man table cloth, a carebear tablecloth, whistles or horns and crown hats on the tables. Balloons hanging everywhere, that was Nancy that took care of that. I would have never been able to do all that without her help. Pam got sick and could not help. Another lady in our church was going to help and got sick and had to go home. She cried because she had to leave, she wanted to help so bad. We have very dear friends in that church, that are genuine like we had there. We still feel very close tho them out there. Still miss them after all these years.
Harold had his head shaved again, his hair is still dead so he cut it off. Roy is cripple, he has a hugh knot on his knee and will not go see about it. Edward and Joann was supose to be there but did not show up. Rosie and Rodney did not come. Jeanette and CW came, Harold and Mae, Roy amd Faye. It was so good. Our kids was all there and some of the grand kids. Some of the older ones had to work. I love James's boys, I just don't get to see them very often. They are polite and has always got a hug for me. They are not smart talking and always nice spoken to everyone.
I could not make it without Nancy, she is my rock along with Jesus when I need some one.
I guess I have rambled on enough so I will say good night and go to bed.
GOD BLESS ALL

Saturday, March 13, 2010

DAY BEFORE BIG DAY

There is so much to do today, go to sams, bake cake ,go to church set up tables, do bulletin and many other things. Looking forward to seeing everyone who comes. I don't know exactly how many. My brothers and sisters and their families, church, friends,and many more are invited.
Hope we have a good turn-out.
GOD BLESS ALL

Friday, March 12, 2010

THURSDAY NIGHT SHOW

I have got to tell you about this, it is so funny.We attended a theatre in Hot Springs called Ray Lynn, at the expense and invite of our investment company. This singer called himself Bufford Presley. He was escorted in a limosine with 2 body guards. He came in the theatre, came down the isle and begin singing some of Elvis songs. I don't even what songs he sung. His body guards came and got me and escorted me on stage. I was so embarressed but I went. It was kinda fun, Sue I thought of you and the Bobby Vinton show in Branson, The lights was so bright I could not see the audience, thank goodness. He first put a scarf around my neck and took me by the hand. He begin singing and quit playing his guitar. He begin slinging his feet out one at a time, one, one way and then the other side. I joined in, which was so surprised I did, That is so not me. But maybe it is time I came out of my shell and begin to do some things that is totally not me. HA HA.

Also the show was so comical. It was fun, funny and good singing. We will be going back.One guy came crawling down the isle and came over to Nancy and was looking at her legs. The guy on stage told him to go on and leave them people along. He got up and said them legs hasn't seen a razor in months. But of course he could not see her legs, she had on pants.
That was so funny.

GOD BLESS ALL

COY'S BIRTHDAY

MARCH 10,2010
I ask him did he want to do anything special today, he said no, just sleep. So he did, I baked his favorite cake and invited some friends over to cake and ice cream. He did not even question why I was fixing things up. That is how out of it he is these days. He sits by his self most of the time. I think he has had a stroke or he is having mini strokes because his mouth is drawn side ways sometimes. His strength is totally gone and he has always been so strong. God knows the problem and he is our healer. I can't even to begin to tell you the strange things he does. Last night we went to Hot Springs, Nancy and I went to rest room and left him in the hall way, holding my purse, when we came out he was gone, he had already gone to the car across the street. I have got to watch, leaving him alone. He left my purse sitting in a chair in the waiting room at the hospital. I had to run to the car to get something, I needed, He will not go in the store, he says he had rather sit in the car. It is so strange the things he does.I ask him tonight if he knew there was something going on, or was he depressed. He said nothing was wrong. I explained to him about the spot on the brain they found on his CT. He acts like he doesn't know that he is different.

After church wednesday night, we walked in the house and smelled the coffee. It smelled so good. My sister taught me how good fresh ground coffee is, we grind our own now. Sister Swiger said "Sis this coffee is so good." We have an automatic coffeemaker which is so nice, we set it every night so it will be ready when we awake. The cake was a white cake with tangy orange icing and coconut. We had 4 couples here besides us. It was so nice. They stayed until 11:30
We are having a big party at church Sunday, drive on over all of you. It is going to be fun and interesting.
We have gathered up table cloths, napkins, candles, plates, cups left from the grand kids birthdays over the years, to use on the tables and eating out of. I think it is a wonderful idea.
After all he is a 70 year old grand*pa. I have party hats, baloons, whistles that you blow out and in, you know what I am talking about. So it is going to be fun.
Nancy has made DVD of redwoods and our 50th wedding anniversary, and family pictures to be shown. We will also have the books on display.
I have been baking cream puffs to fill with chicken and ham salad, also we will have all types of crackers, dips, chips, cookies,cake and ice cream. If I have time tomorrow I am making cinnamon rolls. every one is pitching in to help.
Have got to go to bed good night.
GOD BLESS ALL

Thursday, March 4, 2010

ONE MORE VALLEY

Well there is always a mountain after we walk through the valley, reminds me of that song
That song has been on my heart today. We have had so much to pray about this year, I mean in 12 months.God is still our anchor and He is in control. These things is just another hump in the road.
Songs mean so much to me, most of the time a song is my prayer. I don't mean to complain but the devil has beat and kicked us around enough. We have got to stand up and tell him that. OK we are God's children and just back off.
ONE MORE VALLEY
Cause you've got one more valley one more hill
And you've got one more trial one more tear
One more curve in life's road
One more mile left to go
You can lay down your heavy load
When I'm tossed on life's sea
And the waves cover me
And the dark clouds won't
Let the sunshine thru
Then a voice seems to say
Child there'll be a brighter day
Dont allow the storm
To hide sweet heavens view
Dont let satan see your tears
Learn to smile between your fears
Hold your head up high
And give the world a smile
Just be faithful all the way
To be worth it all someday

Tuesday, March 2, 2010

MID-SOUTH QUARTET CONVENTION

It was a blessing to be in gospel singing this weekend. We went to Roy and Faye this weekend. I always enjoy being up there, I just go in and make myself at home. We did not get to go until Sat. morning. We had a lovely trip up, the sun was warm and shining so bright. We left for church at 3:30 we wanted to make sure we got a good seat and we did. We really got blessed.
Sunday we went to church with them, I love their church the people are so friendly and their pastor tells it like it is. He preached on gambling and I'm sure he is having a hard time dealing with the lottery in arkansas. He is totally against any type of gambling and he let his congregation know it.
After church we played dominoes with some friends of theirs.
Monday we drove to Russeville and went to Leonards hardware, it is so big. Lots of their stuff is so old so you can find things other hardware stores may not have. Drove back to their house, went an visited with JR. and came on home. Got home about 7 pm.
I hate to see JR in the shape he is in, He stays in bed most of the time now, hardly ever gets up at all. His wife sure does take care of him. He has lost all his hair from the chemo.
Tonight is a sleepless night, I have a sinus infection and my nose will not leave me alone.
Got some medicine today but it is not working yet.
Coy and I both went to Dr. today. I am having a thyroid panel done and after results she is doing a scan. Our Dr. is finally back in the office.
Well I guess I will try to go back to bed and maybe get some sleep. good night
GOD BLESS ALL

BLESSINGS FROM GOD

Half a century ago+two simple words declared a truth that's planted in our hearts. And every time the flag is raised-we've been honored to repeat the phrase. So the world will know we are Under God. America's been blessed Under God. Brought through every trial and test. We are sheltered by the mercies He chose to give. In Privilege and abundance this nation lives
Under God Freedom has survived--Under God We need to recognize.
We're dependent on His goodness- indebted to his care
Maybe more than any people anytime or anywhere, Still our only hope and prayer--is
UNDER GOD
When we pledge allegiance now it's Under God. These words have shaped the land that we hold dear. Some insist it's not allowed to acknowledge that we need Him now, But it has never been so clear to me, just how much we need him. I want His presence in my life everyday, I cherish his wonders he puts before us to enjoy, flowers, birds, blue sky and even rain clouds.
We have to have the rain to have all the others. So without the Lord by our side we would be like the flowers without rain. We would wither and die. I want to make Gods word a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path. We have to have his word hid in our heart so sin cannot enter.
Your word has given us a path to travel, it is up to us to follow it, by reading you word.

GOD BLESS ALL