GRAND DAUGHTER TIME

March 3,2012
Maranda came on tuesday night as usual, we had a really good visit, usually I have things to do, got them done before she came.
Went to WM and got her a sandwich, she likes those best, chiips and no drink. I had bought a whole case at Sams last week.
It was a very good evening. We also watched a movie about the slaves, I was surprised she wanted to watch that kind of movie, but there was lots of funny parts in it that made us laugh. This one maid made a pie for one of the well to do ladies they worked for, it was made out of crap and seasoned with chocolate. she ate half of it before she was told what it was made with. She said this is the best chocolate pie I ever ate.

March 5-2012

She sent me a text and ask if she could come back Thursday, of course it was OK. We had another wonderful evening, she is really growing up. We heard of a new recipe for dying eggs for easter with silk ties. We went to SOS and bought some old ties, It was really neat the way they turned out, but we found out it had to be silk ties not just any kind. We then went ourside and walked in the garden dirt bearfotted, she said this feels fo good between my toes. She had a ball just walking in the dirt over and over. She walked down in the middles of some of Coyl's rows. We then played bounce the ball back and forth like we use to do every evening when the lived with us. We set and had some long talks.
This has been a very enjoyable week.

Baking Day

Today is a day of business, Baked cupcakes to take some to my friends at prattsville, Baked a pound cake for us here and have got to bake amish cookies to take to all my friends at the ASH meeting for Saturday morning. Have not been to a state Histo meeting in several years. It will be fun and a day out for me. A lot of retired Histotechs will be there. Also we are going to gather with them a Cozymel's in LR for dinner tomorrow night. Tha is always fun. Coy will probably just sit , what he usually does , He never talks to anyone or says anything. He misses out on so much these times in his life. Have done everything I can to help him hear but it never works, he tears things up and they don't work anymore.

I am so tired and hurt today, I fell this morning when I was coming in at the back door, after taking Kiefer to school, I think it is just now catching up with me. The back of my head hit the concrete and so did my rear end, it has so much padding I dont think it will give me much problem, but I always worry about my back. The longer the day goes the more I hurt, my ribs, my shoulders, and my all overs. Have had a headache also. So clumsy of me.
I stay so tired because I just can't breath very good.. Have got to go lay down.
I am so clumsy and off balance.lately.

ANOTHER HEARTACHE

January 18,2012
Was awakened at about 1:30 in the morning by a phone call, you always wonder and just know something is wrong somewhere.
It was Rosie telling me Kevin had received a call that JR had just passed. He will be his caretaker, hope he is mine when I go, I lknow I will be handled with care. Not pulled and throwed around, I have worked with bodies before and all bodies is not treated with care.
I called Roy and Faye after I talked with Rosie and Nancy called me, Kevin had called her also. I am so glad the cousins are getting to know each other.
My brother Roy has had to endure so much heartache with the passing of his two sons. He is pretty broke up, It told him we would be leaving as soon as we got Maranda to school. She had spent the night. Tuesday night is her night, she had quit for a long time and not is back, I just let them make their decision as to when they come. Do not ask any more if they can come over.

We left and went by and picked up Rosie my sister, she was riding up there with us. We gathered up a few clothes, even though I needed to come back home, but I knew they needed me up there. was very glad we stayed. I am not well and just wanted to be home. My brother is more important to be with right now. He held me so tight and we boo hooed together for a long time. I just cant imagine loosing 2 of my kids. Life isn't fair and it has dealt him a bad deal. He is very strong, has had 15 stents, open heart surgery and endured a lot and still standing. He said it should have been me with all the health problems and broken down body.
Her and I had a great visit and crying spells all the way up there. Coy was with us but he never talks any where we go. I talk to myself, he never has no comments or anything. Living with a different person than I spent 50 years with. It is really quite lonesome sometimes, that is why I talk on the phone a lot. Don't even like too but I am always thinking of someone with whom I can talk with. If it is just to say hello to someone.

When we got there Roy had his little girl Lucy and that is his sanity, loves that girl, She was a God sent to him to give him a little joy in life.
It was terribly sad day and several days and still is. I know they miss him terribly bad they was there every day, close by and his sister Alesha took care of him every morning. My heart goes out to her, his wife and kids. His step kids was just like his own. Even his first wife and mother of his two kids took it really hard, you could tell she still loved him very much. We will miss him when we go up, but we was not there every day like they was. Losing love ones is so hard but when you see some one suffer like him and no relief in site, you have to let them go. It was so hard for Roy to say I will be OK here and give him permission to go be with Jesus. I pray every day God wraps his arms around him and embrases him with Love and comfort.

Had a chat with Pat one of my nieces, will not go into details, but she knows she has really messed up in lots of ways, she cried but there is no restitution that she can make for what she has done, just live with it. She told me that. Suffers every day.
that is the way it is when we make wrong decisions in life. I have made a few as I know everyone has. God help us to love everyday and always no matter what is done to us. God will take care of things if we just let him. I am really trying to do that.
Have come a long ways since my grand daughter said something to me. I have thought a lot about it and it is ever before me.
She don't talk about anybody and always sees the good in every body and everything. I would like to think I have a little part in that. Had her for 6 years. Love her like my own child. Been put through a lot becausse of her but I am a stronger person because of it. Cannot dwell on it, leave it in God's hands.

God Bless

Dr. CALL

This has been a terrible bout of sickness, Cough, Cough my ribs hurt my back hurts and my chest hurts, it has been terrible.

It will get better in Jesus Name, Amen!!!! So ready for it. Can't stand to be hot so everyone else freezes, had to go outside on pation the other day to breath. I think I have Pneumonia this time. Poor Coy he sits on the chair and covers up I tell him to go put on more clothes, I feel sorry for him but I can't sit out side in 40 mph wind gust. Today is so windy I probably couldn't stand up. The temp is supose to be 22 tonight and wind chill factor probably be 000.

When we went to bed I told Coy I use to hate to crawl in a cold bed now I like it, don't like electric blanket. We have dual controls thank goodness.

Coy and I heard someone knock on the door at about 12:30 got up no one anywhere, we have lights all around out house

and we looked real good no one in sight. Maybe we needed to wake up for some reason, don't know what, For one thing I

was dreaming about Pat sitting on the front porch, LOL Why her I don't know. Love her but just can't deal with her, one day she

is your best friend, next day she is your worst enemy. I pray for her, she has to be misserable.

Have got to go back to bed and try to get some rest.

Went back to be got a little rest, really restless . Need to get to feeling better soon. So much to do and don't feel like doing it.

I will get better just don't know when.

MY PLANS FOR 2012

This is the beginning of a brand new year what will I accomplish, who knows, hope it is better than 2011. I will definitely put God first and the reading of his word, failed in 2011. Jesus is coming very soon and I want to be ready. Maybe this will be my year to meet him. We no not the hour when he will call us home.

Quilting is my goal, I have several tops to finish, goal is to finish them in January and then I will have to peace some more . Plan on making two little girls a quilt, Love those two girls, a dear friend of ours. Rough times in their lives.

Getting rid of lots of things in my house, if the kids gave me things, I am asking them if they want it back.. If not it is sold.

Going through old papers and throwing away, I am the world's worst for saving things I might read some day. I think I have magazines saved in the shed, I said I might not can afford to buy them when I am old,old old, but maybe I want get old, so I saved them. Need to get rid of them. I never read, don't like to read much, rather work with my hands.

Have got lots of trips planned for this year and have lost interest in traveling, rather stay home. So we will see how that goes.

Want to spend more time with my sister, wish my other one would decide to get out here so we could have some time to be together again before one of us goes. Time is short we better make what little time we have count. It is amazing how when you are young you dont think about tomorrow and how short time is. Where did my 70 years go.

I am rambling today, like my sister Sue does sometimes.

Planning a trip for Februart with my sister Rosie, it will be a Retreat for christian ladies, looking forward to that.

Quartet convention also in Feb. That is always good, will be staying with my brother Roy that is always a treat. Wake up in the morning to roosters crowing, chickens pecking around out in the yard, Just the great out doors. Smell the fresh air unles it humid and then all you can smell is barn yards and chicken houses.

Love to look over and around their big pond for deer. Miss going to the woods and being in a deer stand just to watch the animals. Why did we move to town, need to be out and find me a place to just sit. Had a favorite place at out place in the country, spent a lot of time out there at an old crooked tree by the stream. Could not even see the house from there. Miss it so much. But at that time it was best to be close in town.

I don't know why I am so lonely today but I am. Sometimes life isn't fair and sometimes it is our own falt.

Bye for now And God Bless