TRIALS

God has sent our family another trial, another tear, well really bushels of tears. I as many others have had so many trials lately, I really don't want or need another one in my way of thinking, not God way.

Trials are supose to make us strong but I seem awfully weak. In my distress He will make me strong.

As I set there today and listen to my sister tell how much she loved Rodney, it just broke my heart. She told me the thoughts of her heart. I wish I could say something to make her feel better, but there is no words to say. So I just listen to her, it is good for her to just talk and express how she felt. She said I am so angry and he said he would not do this to me. It was not her's or his decision to make. I told her when things settle down I will be up and we will spend time together and just talk. I am so worried about her, but I have to leave her in God's hands.

So many things in life I do not understand but Our ways are not God's ways.

I told her God gave her a few weeks to just enjoy each other, most people do not get that. He should have never made it through the surgery and a ruptured bowel. He did and seem to be doing and recovering very well. He had 3 surgery's in 1 week. That is a lot for one person to endure, go home and do as well as he did.

I lost my baby sister almost 1 year ago. The 6th of Oct. I have missed her so much.

In a few short years, I lost my daughter-in-kaw in child birth, my mother 6 weeks later, my son went to prison 3 months after that. I had a premature baby and a 2 year old to raise. Had a job to go to everyday, just trying to keep a babysitter in my home was hard, they would move away or get a job,or something. It was too hard to get them up and carry them to a babysitter everyday. I had to be at work at 6 am and we lived almost 6 miles out of town, and double back and go to work 25 miles.

It was a very trying time. Had 2 or 3 surgeries in the 6 years I had them. My body took a beating.

God's love and mercy got us through them years just as he is going to carry my sister through her trial.

She has 3 amazing sons and daughter-in-laws to help her. A host of friends and Grand children that will fill her life with Joy and make up for some of the loss she has endured, but Rodney can never be replaced in her life. she will always have him in her heart.

My prayer is God keep my sister, I don't want to lose another one yet, I know it is coming but just not right now. We all have our appointed time that You will call us home to be with you.

ONE MORE VALLEY

WHEN I'M TOSSED ON LIFE'S SEA AND THE WAVES COVER ME

AND THE CLOUDS WON'T ALLOW THE SUN SHINE THRU

THEN A VOICE SEEMS TO SAY,

'CHILD THERE'LL VE A VRIGHTER DAY

DON'T ALLOW THE CLOUDS TO HIDE SWEET HEAVEN'S VIEW'

CAUSE YOU'VE GOT ONE MORE VALLEY

ONE MORE HILL, MAYBE ONE MORE TRIAL

ONE MORE TEAR, ONE MORE CURVE IN LIFE'S ROAD

MAYBE ONE MORE MILE TO GO

YOU CAN LAY DOWDN YOUR HEAVY LOAD

WHEN YOU GET HOME

DON'T LET SATAN SEE YOUR FEARS

LEARN TO SMILE TROUGH ALL YOUR TEARS

HOLD YOUR HEAD UP HIGH AND GIVE THE WORLD A SMILE

JUST BE FAITHFUL ALL THE WAY

IT'LL BE WORTH IT ALL SOME DAY

'CAUSE IT'S ALL GOING TO BE OVER AFTER WHILE